Monday, January 30, 2006
Kaoz. Suddenly just remembered an incident that happened during my driving lesson last week. Was queueing up to make a U-turn somewhere near Eunos there. The queue usually is kinda long so just have to wait. Then all of a sudden, 2 fking BMW drivers just cut from the left of the learner driver car in front of me. My instructor and I was like 'wtf'. He even commented how he wish there was a traffic police there and then. Thinking back, my friends used to say that BMW and taxi drivers and e worst lot. And that had to be my 1st run in with BMW drivers. Seriously, what a bastard. And his license plate no. Sxx666x. Holy, think he is some kind of Satan sht perhaps. And those 2 look like young execs. Had an impulse to turn e steering wheel left and langar them. Had to control though. Not my car -.-
思念是一种病 {11:13 am}
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Just realised many of my gal friends are in a relationship too! Oh mind. But problems problems. Sometimes I think it's just better to lead a single life. Free of commitment and worries. No one to care for, no one to love. No need to pay for extra stuff, no need to worry about all the small small things.
When's the right time? I don't know. Someday perhaps.
思念是一种病 {12:50 pm}
It's time once again for a new year, this time, make it Cheena. So Chinese New Year! Buh, i'm uttering nonsense.
Another year of NS awaits.
Another year of Doing nothing much.
Another year of waiting for another year.
Argh. Happy Chinese New Year!
思念是一种病 {12:29 pm}
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Doing standby duties for my 4th consecutive week. It sucks. Though I get to skip one guard duty, walking up every morning to wear pants and boots straight away is no fun at all. So all in all, I did 4 weeks of standby which was activated 4 times. The one held this week was the most 'zzz' one.
'Porrrrr, porrrrrr' I look around with my sleepy eyes to the people around the bunk. 'Activated, activated!' Someone shouts around. 'Wtf!,' I think to myself, 'there's no warning at all!'. I quickly dashed out of the bunk and returned to mine. The scene is pretty chaotic. 'Let me help you fill your bottle.' 'I help you get the book signed.' Because there's another guy in my bunk who is also helping out to do standby, everyone is rushing to offer a helping hand. I quickly changed to my long 4 and grabbed my field pack, rifle and sbo and chiong-ed to the parade square.
Everybody would have either cursed out loud or in their breath 'fknnbccb', part or all of it. I surely did. After that standby, we all had a good laugh about it. Their PS even commented that it was pretty fun to do that once in a while. To really test out our readiness, instead of the normal warning we get beforehand to prepare. But for the rest of the week, all of us are on tenterfoot cause after that 1 experience, no one dared to take it for granted that they will not activate us again.
Luckily for us, there was not to be another activation. So for the ending of the week, that is Thurs and Fri, we pretty much just nua away in bunk waiting to book out! Woo hoo. Count down to CITI, Chinese New Year and ORD!!!!!!
思念是一种病 {8:33 pm}
Definitely true. After the initial 1st half of army life filled with all the breakups and stuff, now's the time to get hitched again!
Let's use driving as an analogy. Say 2 of my bunk mates who were attached already are in Gear 5 (cruising gear), there's another 2 of them that's Gear 3 approaching Gear 4. 3 more are still at Gear 1, still trying to jio some girl. And for me. I'm in reverse gear WITH my handbrake up. Thus to say it simply is not moving forward by even an mm. Amazing isn't it.
To say that it doesnt affect me at all would be simply lying through my teeth. The feeling sucks when people all around you are talking sweet nothings on the phone to their whoever girl. Well, what to do. So when evening comes, I'll go to the next bunk and find my "suck cock" buddy to nua on his bed. And we'll complain together why no girls messaging us. Haha.
No worries man. Tell me I'm still young and attractive k? Which of course I am. Muahaha. Shall wait till I enter Uni to find that girl. Till then, more suffering in bunk for 417 days!!!! Argh!??!?!!
Then again, positively thinking, its 417 freaking more days to ORD! Woo hoo. It's like your ticket back to reality and life instead of this show/play that we are all part of.
思念是一种病 {1:11 am}
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Only about a week more or so in camp.. before i get to go on course, actually the whole company goes on course. To learn to be a.... Blangad Worker! That's right. A course to learn contructing engineering. So in the event of any disaster, touch wood, we will be activated to help with relief efforts.
And our final exercise of our 1st year is being pushed back! It would have been this Fri but is now changed to next Mon. Reason: Brunei counterparts are coming to watch us do our exercise. And that means only one thing, preparations and training for it is going to be xiong xiong xiong. Not sure if I'm involved in firing of any charges but I don't really care! Army life roxs, (as i try to psycho my ownself).
Tuition is good too! But tuition agency sucks. Stupid. Not even a single call back to me. Still the best to depend on friend's recommendation~ [=
Broke the speed limit of 100km/h today! Muahhaaha. Cause instructor was sort of late for the 1st time and he woke me up with 6 calls in the morning at 830! So I think he close one eye, or rather both eyes when I was on a flyover heading to Comfort Driving Centre. Damn shiok to speed. Oh my. Nono, speeding is bad. Thou shall not speed......... when there's traffic police ard! Haha. Driving is such a stress reliever. Wanna drive my own!
思念是一种病 {5:38 pm}
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思念是一种病 {5:26 pm}
Friday, January 13, 2006
And so the tale of my incredible dream last night.. It was another happy moment for the both of us. Another year of anniversary meant another year of a meaningful time spent together.
That girl seemed so familiar. It was like a friend that I knew for some time. Let's called her P.We were dining at a restaurant and shopping around for presents. P whispered to my ears that it was her happiest moment in life. I smiled back at her and told her she was the greatest treasure that I could ever find.
Fast forward."Rinnngggg" I received a phone call from the hospital. I was told that P was admitted into the hospital just half an hour ago. Shocked for a moment, i dashed out flagging the next available taxi.
I looked at her petite but tanned face. It spoke a thousand words. Pain, hurt, depressed. I breathed heavily. As if she could sense my presense, her hands reached out to touch mine and she mumbled, "Jaren?" At that point, tears started to fill my eyes.
I suddenly woke up from my dream. Drops of tears flowed steadily down my cheeks as I lay in bed still fresh from the dream. I closed my eyes tightly, determined to finish the 'story'.I kneel down beside her bed, starting to cry heavily now. Her smooth hands touched my face and wipe those tears away. "I love you", was all she said. I looked at her once again, gone were those beautiful eyes that shone whenever I sprang surprises on her. Gone were the eyes that lit up my dark dull days. Gone were the eyes that told me she'll be there for me no matter what. She has lost both her sight in a freak accident.
As we walked along Orchard Road, I began explaining the shopping centres in greater detail to her. She was as bubbly as before. Though wearing shades to shield her eyes, she still looked very much the same P I knew all along. There would never be a dull moment with P around.
While walking her home on night, she suddenly popped a sentence that threw me totally off guard. "I would very much like to see the world again."
I decided to break off with P. I called her telling her she was too much trouble for me and that I could take it no longer and would prefer to live a life of my own. Though I know that was what she hoped for, she was shocked when I actually proposed it. P tried calling me back several times but I simply refused to pick up the phone. My heart is crying out more than ever.
I began packing up my room. The cards she wrote to me, the container that stored that delicious cookie she gave to me and photos of us in the past. I put them all together in a briefcase and carried it with me as I took a cab down to the hospital.
I lay in the surgical bed next to P. I held P's hands for the last time, took a photograph of her in my memory and squeezed her hands tightly for the last time. I closed my eyes.
P woke up to find her family and friends surrounding her bed. Her vision was blurred but slowly she could recgonised them. She was overjoyed. P never imagined a day when she could actually see the world as it is again. She asked her close friends about me. None of them knew who actually donated that pair of eyes nor where I went.
P opened the door of my apartment with her set of keys. The room was empty. Everything was cleared out as if the occupant had intended to sell away the apartment. She searched the place and found an envelope addressed to her on a stand she once made for me.
"Dearest P, I did not have any intention of breaking your heart. But to see you in your present state really breaks mine. I love you so much that I want you to have the best of everything. By the time you read this, i believe you would have regained your sight and looking at this wonderful world again. At the same time, I would be experiencing what you went through previously. I hope you'll find a really loving boyfriend to look after you when I'm gone. Love, Jaren"
P cried her heart out.
Suddenly my bunk lights went on and thus it was time to wake up. And so, my incredible love tale.
思念是一种病 {8:08 pm}
Monday, January 02, 2006
Chance or Choice??
When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.
Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen.
I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.
We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love... BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly..
思念是一种病 {7:30 pm}
Sunday, January 01, 2006
New computer for ME is on the way! Finally! Finally! After this computer has lasted for 3 years, it so is about time. So that's one item off my wishlist. Whoo! Dell computer customised for maximun performance, also upgradable in the future if I need so.
Estimated arrival time: 2 weeks. Aiming to start using it by the 15th of Jan.
How i kept true to NYR (new year resolution) No. 3. On Friday went out with ocip peeps! Went for dinner and some booze at clark quay, Brewerkz! There were myself, yumei, aikmeng, aaron, yeefung, siew hoon, rachel & lewis! Din reall had any ba gua session but of course there was the usual 'zhong ji mi ma'. Mixing different kinds of beer together with some house pours. Also had their sample set of their 8 normal beers that they brew.
The 2nd group of friends I went out with were my ex colleagues at DFS. Met up today at City Hall and proceeded to Marche for lunch. Catched up for old time's sake. Kinda missed my working days there but at the same time can't forget the polictics when I was just about to finish my stint that left such a bad taste in my mouth.
思念是一种病 {11:37 pm}
