Received our packing list for C, guess we would be going afterall. Don't know whether to feel relieved or disappointed. Well, gotta prepare myself no matter.

Booking in on this wonderful Sat, due to guard duty tomorrow. Argh. Short weekend.

Crap. Mind block. Like 'duh'.

Never mind, shall go bathe and book in. Sobs.

You are free to miss me~ [=



With regard to last week's outfield, too many random thoughts going in and out of my mind that I really don't know what to say. So instead, I'll put in other's words for you.

Jeremy
"On the first night of field camp there was nothing much to do but sleep. Well thanks to the mossies I could hardly catch a wink of sleep. While I was awake, many things went through my head, many memories flashed back. I was thinking how good it would be if I had someone who could share all my wonder experience in camp with me, laugh at all the silly things that happens to me and listen to my endless complains about army. Sadly, I am not that lucky. Some how that led to me thinking about the past when I had girlfriends who would do all these with me and now to be standing there alone and laugh at my own silly incidents and only have myself to complain and probably my blog to lash out my unhappiness about things. As these thoughts flashed through my head I slowly fell asleep."

Chen Yu
"And boy and I suffering. The only way to keep your sanity is if you just withdraw within yourself during those times in the field. Retreat into the recesses of your mind. Make yourself numb. Sometimes you dig in so deep within yourself you can’t claw your way out even if you want to."

Jia Wei
"what comes to be the probable 2nd last outfield i have in NS time...

was full of thoughts.. to others, yeah.. i guess i appeared sad/quiet/or even angry.. but my mind's kinda in everywhere else that deserves my attention.. =

i guess i would never forget

the time we bashed into the foilage,

the time we digged and shaped *our homes* for the remaining nights,

the time we continuously swatted at flies/ants/spiders/mozzies/other-what-have-you,

the time when night fell and the midnight moon cast an omnimous glow amidst the mist/haze of the forest landscape,

the time where people around you becomes no more than a shadow and you could see no one cept for the long long dirt ahead and black all around you,

the time when a dozen of sweaty guys squeezed in a vehicle bumping all the way around near-cemetry/farmland areas,

the time when we throw/hammer/touch our cold rusted pickets, con wires, sledge hammer, mallets, bah bah..

the feeling of absolute ZZZ when walking or doing work, and actually dozed off while walking. literally!

the time when halfway thru, we encounter tanks and bikes and APCs rolling about, we looking at em, they looking back at us. lol

the time when everyone's tired, yet theres work to be done, and theres willing souls to help out.

yes, all these have been registered permanently into my hard disk of my brain. guess i'll never forget..

at the end of it all, looking back at this outfield exercise.. it gives me a certain unexplainable feeling, perhaps a cocktail mixture of relief(that NS is ending in 5 months time), of tiredness ( that we din sleep much), of gratitude and appreciation.

i guess its too big an assumption to label NS as a *waste of time* or anything along this line.. Time is given equal to us. 2 years. Make use of it or waste it. Your choice."



Wow, the new blog has my old entries that stretches till Dec last year. Kool~ And I'm still home! Half day off extended for another half day. Wahaha. Company given half day off, probably for our good effort? I hope. So gotta book in tonight [=



Went to YY's City Havest Church cell group bbq on Sat night. It was, well, hospitable, the people i meant. Of course they did invite me to their sevice but I must say I am a devout free thinker. Ahaha. In fact, I even cycled to the bbq spot at Pasir Ris park. This itself is a feat, considering that I have NEVER touched my bicycle anymore after I 1st bought it about 6 years ago. But I pulled it off successfully =]

Didn't expect to meet a junior of mine there. It was a pleasant surprise as it meant company for me, not sure about her though, might be pestering her! Lol. But I'm not interested to know about it. So we chatted for some time about school, friends and life. It brought back wonderful memories and I'm all ready looking forward to create more memorable experiences in the future.

By the way, Cal, didn't know you actually have Grade 8 for piano! I was pretty awed by it. Not many people can survive till then. Reflecting on my guitar, it's.. abit pathetic. My teacher always mentioned about some guitar examination and I have absolutely no idea how to take it with my current skill level of almost 2 out of 10 proficiency.

Not forgetting, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAB! Haha, like I smsed you, another year older! Muahahah. Turning another year older on Sun, we are now, by birthdate, the same age! It sometimes still amazes me the number of years I've known you, almost 5? Haha. The saying that friendship can last a lifetime whereas love or past love seldom can is so true. Seriously, how many people still keep in close contact with their ex-es? But maybe the person whom I'm known the longest and is still more or less in contact is Valerie ba? Ever since my time at Tampines FSC when I was in P4. that makes 10 years. Used to hold a torch for her, which was SOOOO adolescence puppy love and never reciprocated. Makes me look back and laugh at myself.

Remember the guy that pushed his ex-girlfriend of the Clementi MRT platform? Seriously, a double degree holder, ASEAN undergraduate scholar, he's nuts. Come on, if you can't handle the stress of a relationship, don't get into one. Fancy pushing a lady, down to the tracks. If she was injured, or even worst, may God bless him.

Last week during my exercise outfield, was suddenly told that Thailand is in turmoil. Thaksin declared a state of emergency and the military apparently took over the government with the support of the King and Queen. It came as a surprise to us and suddenly our mid-Oct trip to Crescendo was in doubts. The situation there now at least is somewhat better and hopefully they can elect a new government soon and we will still head to Crescendo. I really do not wish to do etap 2 in Singapore as I have got too many things planned for all the off in lieu/block leave starting Nov!!!

It's exactly 2 weeks and 2 days before I would be flying off the Thailand, if we are still going that is. Although life is army is tough, I believed it did made a stronger person out of me. Not going to command school was bad, but it's not the worst. I'm certain there are many more obstacles out there in future that will made the incident look small in comparison and I'm going to have to deal with it. At least I'll never forget the friends made and the times spent. The shit, rain, sun, sweat, blood, scars and friendship we all went through. The pinnacle is coming.

Narrowing down my choices of courses to take up after I ORD. Most likely, will take a part time diploma in either Counselling Psychology, Psychology or Business/Finance. The reason I have to keep up options open is because of the courses timings. If they do not fit, of course I need to change it. More or less certain that I'll try and find relief teaching when i ORD too. Can't wait to start Spanish lessons with my Sis too, hoping there would be new beginner courses starting Nov/Dec.

Is this post abit long? Am typing it paragraph by paragraph when I stop to train in Maplestory. Hehe. How long more? I don't know. Carry on~

A closer friend in army told me last week, that I don't really have much friends in army. Being unhappy about his comment at first, I realised it spoke volumes of truth. The only closer friends I have can be counted with 1 hand or less. There used to be another. But at the turn of the year thereabouts, the things we shared changed. Hobbies being different, interests different, we drifted apart. I did feel sad about it as we used to had so much to talk about, girls, clothes, how we spent our weekends etc. I would always go to his bunk to find him and sit by his bed, but now it has been reduced to superficial talk. Blah.

Finding myself loving to plan things. Not plan my life but more like plan outings, events etc. Earlier in the day just smsed yumei asking her if she was willing to help me plan an Xmas party/celebration for us ocip peeps. Of course she agreed, and so, shall take a week or so to plan it out in further detail. My house really is THE place for gatherings. Haha. Chinese New Year I would usually welcome my college classmates and we would chat almost the whole afternoon, pactically summarising the past year's happenings. Special occasions would usually be for ocip peeps or my council buddies. The only thing that my house doesn't offer is a place for projects! YAY! It's all about having fun!

Thinking of changing my blog skin soon. Shall ask my Sis to help me find nice skins ^^

Think I shall end here. Enough rumblings for a day, actually should be a few weeks of rumblings all complied in 1 day. Haha.

Take care~~~



An old, but superb song:

Wonderful Tonight
by Eric Clapton

It's late in the evening; she's wondering what clothes to wear.
She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair.
And then she asks me, "Do I look all right?"
And I say, "Yes, you look wonderful tonight."

We go to a party and everyone turns to see
This beautiful lady that's walking around with me.
And then she asks me, "Do you feel all right?"
And I say, "Yes, I feel wonderful tonight."

I feel wonderful because I see
The love light in your eyes.
And the wonder of it all
Is that you just don't realize how much I love you.

It's time to go home now and I've got an aching head,
So I give her the car keys and she helps me to bed.
And then I tell her, as I turn out the light,
I say, "My darling, you were wonderful tonight.
Oh my darling, you were wonderful tonight."



A man loves a woman so deeply, that even when he's dying he pleaded with Lord.

Man: "Lord, could you please give me another 5 years to live? I would really like to take this time to court this woman I love so dearly."

Lord grants him his wish and he lives for another 5 years trying to woo this woman.
Time flies quickly, 5 years has passed and nothing happened between them. Again, he pleaded with Lord.

Man: "Lord, please, give me just 10 years. In 10 years time, this woman would be my wife."

Sympathetic to the dying man, Lord grants him another 10 years of life to fulfill his wish. At the turn of the decade, the man and woman still remain just friends. Feeling disappointed, the man decides to give it one last shot.

Man: "Lord, I know I love this woman so much that I want her by my death side. I'm asking for a final 15 years."

Having already given this man 15 years to leave, Lord decided once again to let him have another 15 years to live. Sadly, 15 years passed so fast that the man could do nothing to make that woman love him. He goes to Lord, head down, dejected.

Man: "Lord, I'm ready to go. I have given up, after all these 30 years came to nought."

Lord could not hide his laughter.

Man, "HOW could YOU still find it funny at this moment," the man shouted back at Lord.

Lord: "Finally you have given up on what does not belong to you in the first place. I want to introduce a woman to you, who has been waiting all these 30 years, doing the same thing you did."



Hope you do get the gist of the story. =]



Let me see, someone once told me that 4 years is not a very long period of time. But how true is it? So far, only 1 year has passed and yet so much had changed. What else can I say for the remaining 3 years?

Here's another personality of mine for you to chew on:

Intense, dominating, and energetic -- your hypnotic stare and your vital force overwhelm those around you. You are passionate and committed to your friends and ruthless with your enemies. Upon the battlefield of life, you are the one who leads, storming the gates of the fortress. Scorpios have a keen intellect and admirable qualities of patience and creativity. You are definitely not the gregarious, social kind, always ready to please people. You are genuine and most of the times, above petty gains. However, you are certainly not above conspiracy and manipulation. Like the scorpion with the sting in its tail, people had better watch out before they rub you the wrong way. Quite a few of you will devote considerable time and energies to develop strategies and plot revenge against your enemies. You are a determined lot. Set to achieve, there are very few challenges that you will not meet. Actually, all activity must hold a sense of purpose for you. Yo u have an inner strength and a great capacity to endure hardships. There is in fact a streak of masochism in you that enables you to destroy something you have nurtured with great care and love. You can easily change course if it suits you better. Nevertheless, you are dynamic, fascinating and often mysterious - a combination that draws many towards you.

You are among the best lovers, instinctively knowing what your partner wants. You are intense and passionate and none of your lovers will ever forget you. You will sweep many off with your magnetic charm. You will rarely distinguish between a passing fancy and true love. For you, it will always be a passionate involvement. Scorpios can also be very jealous and will go to any lengths to claim what they feel is rightly theirs. You will find your ideal life partner in fellow water signs - Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces. It is the water signs that understand you best. You may have disagreements with your family, as you feel they cannot understand you or the intensity of your passion. Though you are a good parent, you can turn wrathful without warning. This often makes your relationship with your children rather uneasy. The Scorpio house will be comfortable and classy, but not overtly flamboyant as you do have an eye for detail and will prefer the minimalis t style.

You are ideally suited for the sciences and will do extremely well as physicians and surgeons. Architecture and mechanics are also some areas where you will excel. Whether in industry or the military, you will make excellent commanders. Some of you will be interested in fine arts, literature, and journalism -- fields in which you will do quite well. You need not travel long distances to seek fortune and success. In fact, travelling sometimes has quite the opposite effect on you. You will have a good head for business and will be able to plan your investments shrewdly. You normally look towards making big money, but must have patience, lest you adopt less than honourable means to reach your goals

You love to holiday in those exotic places that normally others don't go to. Visiting Pyramids in Egypt to the Great Wall of China would always appeal to you. You can withstand any climatic conditions. Package and guided tours are not your idea of holiday. You like to be different in the places you visit and your approach to holidaying.

He is a mysterious and secretive person who never reveals what he is thinking. He possesses an almost mystical and magnetic quality but can also be quite ruthless and dangerous. He usually has a penetrative insight and needs to know people to the core. He enjoys sports, but mostly for the competition it offers. Being a water sign, he is unpredictable and occasionally undergoes mood swings. He is a very passionate and intense person who cannot tolerate things not going his way. He enjoys challenging hobbies. He usually has his own agenda and expectations from life and he goes about fulfilling them with a single-minded passion. He is confident and resourceful, with people flocking to him, but mind you, the sting of a Scorpio can be really dangerous.



Seriously, the holiday thingy kinda very true. Like I mentioned in earlier posts, I want to travel to the Middle East, visit each Wonder etc. And not do boring stuff like follow a tour group, *yawn*



Woo hoo. My 1st credit card: POSB everyday mastercard. It's abit low-class but still, a credit card. No, I will not use it unless necessary [=

And though it's just a supplementary card, at least it's Platinum. Haha.

Field camps and more field camps.

7 weeks till I come back from Thailand.
7 weeks to freedom.
7 weeks to 50% civilian-ism.



from aud.

NOVEMBER:

Has a lot of ideas.
Difficult to fathom.
Thinks forward.
Unique and brilliant.
Extraordinary ideas.
Sharp thinking.
Fine and strong clairvoyance.
Can become good doctors.
Dynamic in personality.
Secretive.
Inquisitive.
Knows how to dig secrets.
Always thinking.
Less talkative but amiable.
Brave and generous.
Patient.
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
If there is a will, there is a way.
Determined.
Never give up.
Hardly becomes angry unless provoked.
Loves to be alone.
Thinks differently from others.
Sharp-minded.
Motivates oneself.
Does not appreciates praises.
High-spirited.
Well-built and tough.
Deep love and emotions.
Romantic.
Uncertain in relationships.
Hardworking.
High abilities.
Trustworthy.
Honest and keeps secrets.
Not able to control emotions.
Unpredictable.



7 Things About Me? Tagged by: wan theng -_-

7 Things That Scare Me:
1. Losing loved ones. *can never imagine that*
2. Failing in something that I put in alot of effort. *bi shen*
3. Not getting married! *gasps*
4. Inability to secure a job? *i think*
5. Losing everything. *omg!*
6. Death, before I accomplish anything.
7. A horrible death. *duh*

7 Random Songs At The Moment:
1. Zhui Jing - Li Shen Jie
2. Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
3. Beautiful Love - Tanya Chua
4. Purest of Pain - Son by Four
5. Yue Ding - Guang Liang
6. Na Jiu Zhe Yang Ba - Power Station (Dong Li Huo Che)
7. Zhi Shao Zhuo De Bi Ni Zhao - can't remember singer

7 Things That I Like The Most:
1. My Family
2. My friends
3. Idea of back to books
4. Sleeping
5. Online gaming
6. Thought of indulging in sports
7. People watch

7 Important Things In My Bedroom:
1. Computer
2. Phone
3. Books
4. Photos
5. Fan
6. Weights
7. Guitar

7 Random Facts About Me:
1. Still 1.79cm? Not 1.80
2. Always miao tiao *wahahaha*
3. Gossips? I don't share, I listen
4. Plays maple?
5. Don't bathe in the mornings
6. Rather chill at home than go out
7. Never smoke, lie, gamle or drink before *okay, all are untrue =x*

7 Things I Said The Most:
1. Eh
2. Waaaaaaaaah
3. Thaaaaaaank you ah
4. Can la
5. Mei you loh
6. Hao sian
7. Go and die

7 Things I Plan To Do Before I Die:
1. Get a Masters
2. Visit a country in each continent
3. Skydive
4. Publish my autobiography!
5. Earn at least $1Million and continue so
6. Donate it to charity after passing some to my family
7. Survive as long as I can

7 People I Want To Pass This On To:
1. Mablerine
2. Hui Ting
3. Jia Wei
4. Pei Wen
5. Alvin
6. Belinda
7. Audrey~



Ah yes. Blogging. Been slightly busier with you-know-what but anyways, here I am!
Okay, let me chat about happenings in reverse chronological order.

Yesterday, being the 2nd of Sept, I had 3 friends birthday~ Isa, ht & hp turning..... 18, 19 and 20 respectively. Happy birthday! Think it's the only date in my book whereby there's 3 people celebrating together. Oh. Another date's mine! Me, jm & my cousin! But that's still some time later.

Moving back, Thurs I won 2 tickets to watch Van & Tong En concert held at NTU from Yes933. They were asking for the name of the song that was on air at that time. Being the always-resourceful me, of course I found out the name of the song and simply SMSed it over to them. I was listening to online radio, thus they had the song title =p
So comes the hard part when I won the tickets = finding people to go with me. I did ask those 3 birthday people out, but sadly, was abit late and all had other arrangements. Nevertheless, found ky to accompany down to NTU. Tong En looks prettier in person while Van was, not as handsome as I thought him to be. Met a couple of guides junior there and haoting~ Oh wells. That's about it, the Lee Kong Chian lecture hall which the concert was held wasn't even full -_-

The dinner! TPJC's 20th anniversary dinner was sad. It was a total waste of my $60 and time. though i get to miss Sat's moving of barricades
1: Dinner was catered, not by hotels but by some Radin Mas catering services which SUCK. Their main is at Orchid CC. DO NOT provide catering by them.
2. The crowd was mostly of batches in 80s or 90s. I only saw like 6 other people from my class of 03/04.
3. It was more like a Teachers' Dinner whereby ex-students gate crashed it. Cause of apathy of our ex-students, they could not fill all the tables and had to combine the Teacher's Day dinner together. Which was another sad thing.
4. I was sitting at the VIP table, which I knew NO ONE. There was this new vice-principal, Suhaimi Yusoff (from Police and Thieves), and some other random people.
All in all, it was bad. Lucky draw prizes were BLAH. Tupperware? WTH!

Back to being the busy me. Tatas~

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