Friday, March 30, 2007
3 days retreat to Tioman! Not a retreat la actually, finale of my diving lessons YIPPEE! Last step to a scuba diver certification and the key to a whole new world of diving possibilities.
Those of you that will miss me, do wish for me for a great trip. Those that don't like me, can wish that I'll never come back, but I'll still do anyway!
Clothes - checked
Toiletries - checked
Mask & snorkel - checked
Money - checked
Passport - checked
Divelog book - checked
Insurance - checked
Myself - CHECKED and ready to go~
思念是一种病 {2:31 pm}
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Omg, I didn't even realise that I was causing so much pain to you. And I always thought I knew better than that.
I'm so dumb.
And I'm really, sorry. And I will keep my distance, I promise.
"
you're adding misery and torture to my life", I'll remember it.
思念是一种病 {10:17 pm}
Ok, let me talk abit about what I have been up to these few days.
Actually, I'm undergoing training with Prudential for the financial advisor I yet to be. To the people around who know that I'm doing this, their first reaction was, "I don't want to buy hor", "Don't find me ah", or something along that line. At first I was pretty disappointed, even if they are not interested, the least they could do is show some support.
When I think back about my reaction then, I realise I was the one in the wrong. Putting myself in their shoes, most probably I would say the same to a would-be financial advisor. Frankly, only 1 friend did express interest in it. And when I asked his reason for it, this was it, "Hmmm, I think insurance is a must no matter what because we never know what will happen.." And that's true.
I truely salute him, for even I, before this training didn't even give two hoots about insurance. But now I know the magic of it, the miracle of it and the blessing to have it. Maybe at my current age, people still don't realise what's the value of human life. If I die now, how am I ever to repay my parents, what they have put into nurturing me all these 20 years? And it took me 20 years and so many teachings to realise this.
I'm proud to say that I have a good agency backing and a very supportive manager who's willing to groom me, and not forgetting my parents who will always be behind me.
Of course, I know how awkward it feels for me to approach friends in this business. Too many people around have lost countless friends on this basis. Don't worry, I won't even mention anything about it. But those that are interested in wealth accumulation and risk management, can always feel free to call me, but I must say, I'm not even 21 yet therefore I am not an advisor! I can always share what I know.
思念是一种病 {9:57 pm}
Monday, March 26, 2007
It's a good thing I now have a living animal to pour my troubles to, instead of my stuffed doggie for 20years.
Junior!!!!!!!!
思念是一种病 {10:52 pm}
Patience or stubborness? I guess it's just relative. What took me 5 hours, i believe it's patience though it may be argued that it is stubborness.
By any logical thinking, what I was hoping for didn't even stand a flicker of a chance, but mathematically it did and I tried, wishing for the best. At least I get a consolation of sorts.
How does one not let the heart, but the head take control?
思念是一种病 {10:41 pm}
Sunday, March 25, 2007
It is such a OMG HOT day today. But i'll come back to that later.
1st official dive at Hantu completed yesterday! Did a total of 3 dives which amazingly took up around 4 hours though it definitely doesn't feel like it. And like I expected, my ears proved troublesome as I had trouble equalising them and felt a squeeze many, many times. It was painful, even my sinus had problem on the second dive. So in the end I just took a much longer time to descend to slowly equalise. Nevertheless, it was fun! Looking forward to our Malaysia trip.
Today headed over to Johor to visit some long distance relatives, which should be my dad's cousins. And they stay in a FREAKING BIG bungalow that cost less than 1.8m ringgit. The land size itself is approximately 3x that of our semi-detached. So around 2x is for the house and another 1 part of the land is just and open field with carpet grass. So they have a jacuzzi, spa, theathe room, karoke room, many bedrooms & toilets. And only pretty disgusting thing is the number of houseflies in the place. I have never seen a Singapore place with that much houseflies at all. But the house was just mind blowing.
And on our way back, even though the air con was turned to full blast in the car, I can still feel the heat and was close to perspiring. Super hot day. Blah.
思念是一种病 {10:37 pm}
Monday, March 19, 2007
When you know it's all but impossible, and yet you still habour thoughts about it, is it being determined or just plain stubborn?
When they give no indication, is it nonchalance or they simply do not know?
If you give too much, without expecting anything in return, is it being big hearted or is there a motive?
If you think you would be the best partner for them, but they do not reciprocate it, how do one go about it?
Crap, I think I've been thinking too much lately. There's just too much to humans and their thinking. I'll probably think about that later when I get to study Psy, not now. Sometimes, I just like being lost in my game. It takes me to a different world, a place where I have to not worry so much about people relationships, where there's not so much to trouble me afterall.
Love is all forgiving & understanding yet hurting at the same time. Maybe I should be glad I'm not involved with it, it simply takes up too much time. I rather indulge in other things. But then again, love is.. amazing, but that's another story for another time.
I really wished you all the best, like always. It doesn't matter who you end up with, as long as you're happy, though I really hate to see you go.
思念是一种病 {10:04 pm}
What does it feel like to like someone, when you know that he/she will never take a fancy for you?
How does it feel to like someone, yet wanting him/her to be happy with whoever she/he will be with?
What does it feel like to like someone, and only being able to admire him/her from afar?
How does it feel to like someone, by only lend a listening ear to him/her when he/she wants?
It feels.. blah.
思念是一种病 {12:10 am}
Sunday, March 18, 2007
What can I say, diving's great! It did take some getting used to the gear, the breathing, the new environment but it soon became second nature.
The recent 2 dive accidents seem to have little effect on those diving enthusiatics. Around 50 people crowded into a quite small swimming pool at Outram Sec, which is on top of a hill. Wished by schools had a swimming pool.
Looking forward to the actual open water dives this Sat at Hantu!
Guitar exams was.. over and done with pretty quickly. Doubt I can get a distinction though, silly mistakes here and there. Oh wells, should be getting results this Sat too.
思念是一种病 {9:23 pm}
Thursday, March 15, 2007
And so, on my first day at work, my services were terminated. Nono, not because I picked a fight with someone or fell out with the manager. Just that the manager requires someone to work on 30th and 31st. Both of which are the start of my dive trip and my dives respectively. Thus, I had no choice but to allow for another replacement who is no other than Weili. Haha. The consultant was kind of funny, telling us not to tell them that we know each other.
Well, of course I did think of underhand methods to keep my job, like keeping it secret about my dive trip and pulling a last min stunt like saying my grandma died in Malaysia. But if I can even do this on a temporary assisgnment, I fear for what i would do in future. Thus, that was a definite no-no and I knew I had to be honest with the manager about my schedule. Oh wells, I'm sure I can find another job.
So it's back to slacking and bumming around at home while waiting for my other job to start, promoting of Bailey's liquor at DFS, again. At 9/hr, I think it isn't that bad, and we don't have to promote it afterall since there's no commission involved. Just be there.
Grade 9 guitar on sat
Pool dive on sun
Hantu dive next sat
Malaysia relatives visiting next sun
I seem pretty busy in fact.
思念是一种病 {12:39 pm}
Friday, March 09, 2007
Memories from a distant past floated my mind for a moment as I walked through the gates of Hell for one last time. Hell it was, for near to 2 years, but at the same time it was a place known as Home. Taking away more unpleasant memories than good ones, I hope to put this past behind and move on. Yet at the same time, how could one forget so easily the people, the training, the blood & sweat and all others that is put in.
At long last, my time has come and am over with it.
It sure seemed like a long time.
思念是一种病 {7:06 pm}
