Wednesday, May 17, 2006
yay. survived another 2 or rather 3 days at jurong island. Sometimes, i wonder if it is the lack of entertainment or the very view of the sea that makes me start to wonder what the f*** i'm doing there.
protecting my country, securing it's interests, bull. don't even start on it. it sometimes amazes me that i haven't actually thought about loading my fulled loaded magazine, which in case you didn't know contains 30 fragible rounds, and just blasting my head off. nono, it's not due to the fact that my buddy, who of all people is jia wei, is not pei-ing me well. it's just a personal matter. at least he's improving. enlightening my about
kino which is a trade secret *ahem* , singing more pop songs and telling me that he the great, the grand, the master photographer!!! maybe it's me who's not keeping him company, while i try to read my next book, which currently is my sister's keeper, or basically nodding off.
so back to me looking at the sea. i think to myself what a loser i am to be sitting there. i am certainly sure that i can be put to use at other places but no, that's the flaw of the ns system. it's a real screw up here but no one really bothers to cover this hole, this gaping deep hurtful hole. why? i don't know. but i guess it's just troublesome. why disturb something when it's been there peacefully all this while? f*** it.
but like i mentioned earlier, since i haven exactly though of committing suicide yet, jia wei and i always discuss what we'll like to do when we enter uni. so for him, that would be to join their photography society and
xian ALL the girls there. AHAHAHA, no, i'm serious. it is.
as for me, well, maybe i'll go for something like.. student union? WAHAHA, laugh all you want. but seriously here, it's what i really want. maybe it's what i think i can do best, while at the same time savouring every moment of it. presidency again? i'm all geared up. the day i ord, will be the day i start my life, after i ended it exactly 2 years earlier.
now's to finish reading 'my sister's keeper' which is by far the fastest i've ever read a book, which is largely due to the fact that i spend most of my time reading, if you understand 'most of my time'.
maybe after another 3 days of
kan hai my mind will give me another thought to think about. but for now, i'll sleep on student union.
思念是一种病 {9:12 pm}
