Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Read the previous post.
Building on what Mrs Clark said, I dawned on what I want out of a relationship. It may seem complicated but I want to be remembered and to remember her. To be her life, and mine hers. And at the end of the day, knowing at least someone out there cares for me.
A relationship can be so draining: emotionally, physically & maybe, financially. And it only needs so little to break a relationship: a small quarrel, a third party or sudden incompatibility. But it requires a lifetime of nurturing. Of commitment, of caring, of love, of forgiveness, of acceptance, of accommodating, of compromise, of fun, of communication, of sharing, of feelings.
I believe I have no ideal girl, for I am not ideal in the first place. But having someone in mind, it makes everyday easier to pass. And yet at times, I wonder if I am waiting for something to materialize or I just can't move ahead. Throughout, funny things might happen and you wonder too much. Whether is she the one? Whether I am the one for her? Whether it is pointless waiting? Whether someone else is better suited? Nevertheless, at the end of the day, thinking of her makes me understand that I am indeed still waiting, regardless of how i feel, as long as she is happy. That is my contentment.
-End of Reflections IV-
思念是一种病 {12:53 am}
